Blind Faith.

Where is it i'm heading towards?
more hurt and pain,
or towards a path of bliss


it pierces your heart
and leaves you lying there

Fantasy
dreams of the future.
You can just hope they come true some day.

Study!
and stop filling your head with stupid shit.
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Only yesterday they told me you were gone
All these normal people, will I find another one?
Monkey on my back, aching in my bones
I forgot you said "One day you'll walk alone"
I said I need you, does that make me wrong?
Am I a weak man, are you feeling strong?
My heart was blackened, it's bloody red
A hole in my heart, a hole in my head?

In a dream I cannot see
Tangled abstract fallacy
Random turmoil builds in me
I'm addicted to chaos

Light shined on my path,
Turn bad days into good
Turn breakdowns into blocks, I smashed 'em cause I could
My brain was labored, my head would spin
Don't let me down, don't give up, don't give in
The rain comes down, cold wind blows
The plans we made are back up on the road
Turn up my collar, welcome the unknown
Remember what you said "One day you'll walk alone"

Uneasy feeling, burning out my eyes
I hope the end is less painful than my life
I stand on trial before the gods
On judgement day
A blink of an eye between
The cradle and the grave

One last look at visions of flesh
The last best hope of man on Earth
Pontius Pilate still washing his hands
The world don't want to be saved
Only left alone

Elysian Fields...
We are storming the heavens
We raise the swords and shields
We ascend to our destiny
To the Elysian Fields

Soaring to the sun
With blood upon their wings
Superstitious dust left twisting in the wind
Man still has one belief,
One decree that stands alone
The laying down of arms
Is like cancer to their bones

Hello.
I'm alive. after extracting 4 teeth. Damn it was horrible
now my cheek is really swollen. you can really tell the difference from afar
Anyways i'm not gonna be able to eat anything except porridge for the next few days.
but commercials on tv keep tempting me. KFC, pizza and ice cream.
i swear i will get all of those when im alright!

Operation was okay. i was scared shit!
Anyways managed to do econs IA 2 yesterday after sleeping for half the day after the op.
completed my TOK presentation today. 
my teeth feels as if its going to drop out anytime. like a baby's teeth.

So life has been as per normal.
Nothing really much. I doubt i can really concentrate right now with my swollen cheek so i'll resort to completing homework and to finish up huck finn. That book is damned.
This coming week i'll be having a lot of birthdays to celebrate.
I'm starting to wonder what's there to do everyday.


hmm.
Nothing is coming in.

She's a real gem!
I'll just wait for the day.
If there is going to be one.


Study damnit.
Tomorrow's surgery.
I don't know how
out-of-action i'll be
Pray it not be long.

Don't go back!
Don't go back!
Keep out!

Moving on,
really quickly


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sometimes i really wonder if it really is the case
or just simply cause there's no one else.

i would like to think its the latter
(:

Ahh. I'm so tired today.
Teacher's day. Did aces day. It's really more tiring than you think. esp if you're up on stage.
Ponned 30 mins of lesson and then went for celebrations.
Nothing glamorous. Performances were alright. Not bad. haha.

Anyways i feel completely drained of energy now.
I should be studying, but i can't. I should sleep early.
I'll try.
So after Teacher's day, went to plaza sing and watched Year One.
Stupid show. hahaha. Absolutely no plot, although it was surprisingly retarded to the point where you'd laugh at people for their stupidity.

Mhm. Had dental appointment after that. Now i have to surgically extract 4 wisdom teeth on Thursday.
Scared as Hell!
Only of the injection into the gum of course. Hate needles. Wish they'd knock me out cold before doing anything with needles.

On a brighter note. (not that it brightens anything up)
(nothing beats the grim news of needles)
I bought 3 books!
The Catcher in the Rye
The Five people you meet in Heaven
and The memory keeper's daughter.

I hope i have enough time to read each book. I strongly feel that it'll be after exams.
I still have that dreaded huckleberry finn to read. ergh. It fills me with disgust to think about that book.

p.s. i should be studying now, but im not.
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Safe in the light that surrounds me,
free of the fear and the pain.

Hello Victoria,
so glad to see you, my friend,